pre dvo 2

october 4, 2006
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got to the boarding house at exactly 21:35 with my hands full - pasalubong and gifts for m...

hit the floor, took out my paraphernalia for my "obra" - scissors, ruler, pencil, the "obra" CD. draw lines, cut the lines... folded the parchment paper with the lyrics... oh goodness! no! why di tama ang alignment... yikes! palpak! argh!

well, so much for a chaotic day! here comes another straw..! nothing more i can do about this... it's entirely my fault...

called you up... asked you if rcv gave you a call and told you about the mess she got me into... you've assured me it was okay... you'll pick me up at the airport...

called up the airline to cancel her trip... shouldered the penalty - no problemo!
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the thing is ... you don't really need to know... but i'm telling it anyways, (you won't read this blog naman di ba?) i just need to unload what's in my head... cause it's full of thoughts of you na... na naman... i've actually had a hunch that she won't be coming with me... weeks before pa... maybe i silently prayed for it... in a way... kahit na may hunch na ako na di na sya makakasama...

you see, i've actually planned to come to dvo last year pa... 'cause i wanted to patch things up with you... birthday ko rin yung balak ko na bigla na lang sumulpot sa front ng house nyo and ask if you'll speak with me... kahit saan dyan... where we can talk... balikan pa ang balak ko nuon... aalis ako dito ng 5am and sakay ulit ako last flight pabalik... gusto ko lang linawin ang lahat... bakit ka nagkaganun sa akin... but something happened to me last year... kinapos na rin sa budget... so, when rcv asked me in feb this year to go there, i grabbed the chance to go .. even offered to charge the fare to my credit card... just so we can book the flight... the dates were my decision... very rarely that i voice my choices... and i did... it was a gift for myself... to see you... the place is special because you're there... ikaw lang ang ipupunta ko sa diyan sa dvo... wala nang iba... not the place, not any thing or any one or any place... i just have to make it clear.. i went to dvo to see you... i'll go to dvo each time for that one reason only...
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got to sleep early... what time is it? yikes! it's past 23:00 na... arranged, re-arranged, checked, re-checked my luggage... what else did i forgot... everything's ok... everything's cool... i'm the only who's delirious, nervous, yikes!

hit the bed at 23:48

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23:57

one message received
M
"c.. don't forget to bring jogging pants or shorts and sneakers for our water rafting"
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hahahaha! it felt great! you sounded na mas excited pa sa akin...! it was the best message i've received from you so far... wish ko lang na sana totoo nga na excited ka rin... sa pagdalaw ko...

how can I sleep na?

got some more text messages - birthday greetings... di bale... oks lang na di mo ako binati... happy na ako sa text message mo...

now, my only problem is... paano ako makakatulog... it's past 1am na... i have to get ready for my flight by 3:00... kailangan makarating ako sa airport before 3:30... yikes! sleep is elusive when you are too excited... full of thoughts... full of things to say... rehearsing the greetings... everything becomes blurred... hazy